The work on emotions, ideals and preconceptions has come to guilt. A colleague of mine said it so well; "Gilt is the fuel that drives you into destructive choices and actions." So I have examined my "guilt fuel" and there was a big tank of it. I saw a symbolic picture in meditation this morning of the energy cramped up by guilt in me. There was a very powerful male gorilla. He was heavy, held his head down i shame. This made me realize how much of my energy and power is held back, soaked up by this feeling of guilt and shame. This image made me happy. To see that I do have all of this dormant power inside that now had the ability to be unleashed.