Self-Esteem Issue #2: I no longer get a self-esteem boost from comparing myself to others. At some point I realized I didn't want to be that way anymore. But I haven't found anything to replace it yet.
Example A: We like to think that brains are an ACHIEVEMENT and beauty isn't. No. They are both accidents. We are born with what we have.
Example B: My ecological footprint is small. Who cares? I've been exposed to cubic tons of green thinking, and many other people haven't.
Example C: I know lots of big words. See Example B, subbing in cubic pages.
Example D: The music I listen to/TV shows I watch/stuff I read/things I do/place I live are REAL, man. Everyone else is a joke. This one is one notch above...
Example E: Anything anyone has ever said in middle school.
Solution: Replace "compare oneself to others" with another way to derive self-esteem. I'm not sure what it is yet, but I think it might be pride. Not deadly-sins pride. This kind
Pride in- Ignoring evil people
- Not being an asshole at work
- Using your design, talents, skills, and knowledge to do things that make you shine
- Not pretending that the niche you occupy that's given you everything you have, including your likes and dislikes, is the BEST NICHE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD, MAN
More pride- Withdrawing from an argument when you know it's time
- Showing others you care about and support them
- Defining your personal ethos and following through on it
- Being brave
Pride is a new concept for me. I always thought it was bad, but bad pride -- the seven-deadly-sins kind -- is actually vanity. This kind of pride is standing-up-straight pride, and it won't float away when the apocalypse happens and everyone else on Earth has died and you have to find a way to preserve your self-esteem but there's no one around to compare yourself to.