"A One-Night stand is like a half eaten sandwich in the fridge. You don't know where itis been or who had it last but it's 3am
Posted Jul 31 2009 11:46am
I remembered last night why I stopped drinking 6 months ago. No I did not wake up this morning to a strange person on the other side of the bed, but man it was a tempting idea last night.
One thing that alcohol has always done is to jump start my sex drive, especially considering that on in my normal sober life that desire is all but gone. Can you blame me though. With a chronic pain condition that is triggered by sex the very idea of it is more often than not a huge turn-OFF. But whenever I start to drink I just start feeling that itch. This is not some huge revelation of course. Like I said it was one of many reasons why I chose to discontinue my alcoholic tendencies recently. Even wanting to have sex at this point in my life is detrimental to my well-being. Wanting it and knowing it is not a possibility is far from a healthy frame of mind to be in, and luckily when I don't drink I am able to keep those impulses in check. But get me around a bottle of Maker's and every boy in the vicinity seems like the perfect candidate. Don't worry ladies I have more self-control than to just go home with the first pretty face that smiles at me, but sometimes the more beautiful specimens are harder to turn down hahaha.
So basically I am putting myself back on the wagon. I know I tell myself this every morning after a heavy night of drinking but it seems to me that the cons outweigh the pros at this point. Did I mention that I had exactly half a drink last night and I could tell that any more and I would def have been on the prowl :-)
It is just far too frustrating to be "frustrated" right now and whatever I can do to avoid these impulses the better for now.