I thought, "What?! I have permission to just GIVE UP?"
Because I had the idea that I'd learn, learn, learn enough to be able to handle the nastiness, and that I should stick it out because it would make me a better person. I think that idea is pretty common. And I think it's bullshit. If you're in a briny environment, you can't learn. I deserve a better workplace. Everyone does.
THAT is what self-respect is about. Knowing your limits and responding to them. No pee-pee pics! No pickled bullshit! I quit!
When it comes to the vulva, self-respect means, dear lord, eat better. I just don't have the will, but I know how much better I'd feel if I did. This year, I plan to blog about the food issue a lot. When I blogged about it, I ate better. Maybe it'll help. I'll even blog about how awesome the cafe mocha is up the street, and three hours later I'll blog about my full-body cafe-mocha meltdown. Mm!