::sigh:: Damn. This just a piece of something that was in my email from a mailing list today. Whomever you are. You are not alone. People are too scared to talk about it.
"I get this email from the message board. Congratulating me on my third year anniversary. I am so bitter, and so angry I can't even begin to describe. The last three years have not been anything to celebrate. I am reactive hypoglycemic, i can't eat solid foods because when I do I don't know what the reaction is going to be ...pain wise. I missed a family gathering at my husbands grandfathers funeral because I took 12 bites of a salad a few hours earlier and I was in so much pain I begged to be left at the hotel room to suffer and cry alone until it passed (it usually passes after a few hours of curled up rocking back and forth praying to god and promising never to eat again). My PCP is like...i don't know brain dead and the Surgeon was so happy that i was down to 111 lbs even though my elbows were bigger then my upper arms and my knees were bigger then my upper thighs. I don't know what else to do I don't know where else to go. My doctor PCP is not concerned because I managed to get my weight back up to 150. What am I suppose to do? Everyone tells me I look good because I don't look so tired and gaunt. But dammit I am still TIRED hello! I still hurt hello!. NO one understands and it seems everyone thinks i am hypo ...what is that hypochondriac? I can't spell doesn't help that I have had a few 151 Bacardi and cokes tonight. I am hoping that alcohol will make me go...if you know what i mean ...not having a bowel movement for 14-17 days at a time isn't to great either....and all this and I still HURT !. The medical profession swore to me that the pain i had was because of my weight if I lost the weight i wouldn't hurt anymore....well bull! the only difference is I can't EAT. Okay I just wanted to vent I tried on the other message board and man did i get flamed, hate emails....I am worse then a child molester there...they even took my pictures down...ha ha ha. thanks for listening I know it wont' fix anything but I am really just having a pity party tonight...I think after three years of fighting ....I am entitled."
::sigh:: Damn. This just a piece of something that was in my email from a mailing list today. Whomever you are. You are not alone. People are too scared to talk about it.
"I get this email from the message board. Congratulating me on my third year anniversary. I am so bitter, and so angry I can't even begin to describe. The last three years have not been anything to celebrate. I am reactive hypoglycemic, i can't eat solid foods because when I do I don't know what the reaction is going to be ...pain wise. I missed a family gathering at my husbands grandfathers funeral because I took 12 bites of a salad a few hours earlier and I was in so much pain I begged to be left at the hotel room to suffer and cry alone until it passed (it usually passes after a few hours of curled up rocking back and forth praying to god and promising never to eat again). My PCP is like...i don't know brain dead and the Surgeon was so happy that i was down to 111 lbs even though my elbows were bigger then my upper arms and my knees were bigger then my upper thighs. I don't know what else to do I don't know where else to go. My doctor PCP is not concerned because I managed to get my weight back up to 150. What am I suppose to do? Everyone tells me I look good because I don't look so tired and gaunt. But dammit I am still TIRED hello! I still hurt hello!. NO one understands and it seems everyone thinks i am hypo ...what is that hypochondriac? I can't spell doesn't help that I have had a few 151 Bacardi and cokes tonight. I am hoping that alcohol will make me go...if you know what i mean ...not having a bowel movement for 14-17 days at a time isn't to great either....and all this and I still HURT !. The medical profession swore to me that the pain i had was because of my weight if I lost the weight i wouldn't hurt anymore....well bull! the only difference is I can't EAT. Okay I just wanted to vent I tried on the other message board and man did i get flamed, hate emails....I am worse then a child molester there...they even took my pictures down...ha ha ha. thanks for listening I know it wont' fix anything but I am really just having a pity party tonight...I think after three years of fighting ....I am entitled."