Thanks to all of you for sharing your true confessions yesterday. I see that a lot of us have the same desires, hang-ups and rituals. It is comforting to know that we're all going through the same thing in the same way - I've come to rely on all my blogging friends to lift me up, give me support and advice, and to be my companions on this journey to health.
I can't help but think of "Deep Thoughts by Jack Handey" as I write this post today. I'm amazed by the thoughts my mind comes up with as I'm working out, especially on the treadmill. When I'm doing weights I'm usually concentrating on the machine, making sure I'm lifting correctly, counting reps, etc. But on the treadmill, I'm just....walking. I have music on, but my mind starts to wander and I come up with the craziest thoughts.
"WHY on earth would they build a McDonald's in front of a gym?"
"I wonder how many calories a six piece McNuggets has..."
"Is there a hole in my pants? That would be embarrassing." (Trying to casually feel the seam on my butt for holes while walking.) "Nope, no hole. I bet the guy on the elliptical thought I was scratching my butt."
Just some of my mind's ramblings during the past few workouts.
When I first started going to the gym, I had a sort of epiphany on the treadmill. As I trudged through my walk, my thoughts turned to my life and what I had accomplished so far. I got so down - I felt as if I hadn't "made my mark" on the world yet. My kids are a great accomplishment, of course, but I think God had more to do with that than I did! As I walked, I thought about what I really, really wanted to do with my life if given the chance. And I got the answer.
I wanted to write.
I realized that throughout the years I've wanted to write - anything, really - but I always stopped myself. I'm sure it was a fear of failure. On that machine I realized that I had to do what I was meant to do in this world, even if it means failing.
So after that workout, I started writing! I'm still writing (well, duh - here's my blog), but I'm also writing a book and working on some freelance articles. I LOVE it, and I think it is all part of the master plan to be my true self: healthy, happy and doing what I love.