Well hello there, remember me? I guess I owe it to all my dear old blog fans and friends what has been going on with me.
I am still alive, and don't worry, I'm still fat, but I will get to that in a minute.
With the ice cream store having an uncertain future, I decided to take my life and family into my own hands and in May of 2010 I signed a lease for a little retail store across the street from my ice cream store, on June 13, 2010 I opened Kids Planet, a children's resale boutique. I can't even believe some days that I actually did it. I am very happy at the moment, but it hasn't been easy.
I spent most of my summer juggling my many hats between Kids Planet, and the ice cream store and then coming home to try and be a mom. My husband, my MIL and parents have been 100% supportive of my new dream. My MIL stays home with the kids for the most part. My kids cried a lot in the beginning because they missed me so much. When my husband was busy at the ice cream store, I would go and help him after I closed my store, and on the unfortunate days that my MIL couldn't watch the kids, he would stay home and I would run both stores.
I have been spending the last 4 months working solely on Kids Planet and trying to build a new brand. The challenges of trying to get this store up and running has been a tremendous challenge, this is the first thing I have done from the ground up. I must say, I am pretty damn proud of myself!
I spent most of the summer at Kids Planet or Baskin Robbins, that I never stayed home to cook a meal or eat at home. The husband and I ate out every meal, breakfast lunch and dinner pretty much the whole summer. At the beginning of August, I started not to feel good at all. I started having chest pains and felt I couldn't breath. Without health insurance, I chose to ignore it and chalk it up to stress and my asthma. I finally ran out of medicine for my asthma and the walk in clinic near my house finally stopped treating me.
In a panic, I called my MIL's doctor. I went to her in the beginning of August, and she gave me the bad news that I was dreading. My blood pressure was dangerously high, and my EKG was abnormal. I needed to get my life under control or I would die. I went to her at my all time highest weight of 367.
From that moment forward, I cut salt out of my diet and limited my meat and sugar intake. Within one month, I lost 15 pounds and lowered my blood pressure and got my asthma under control (with her help of the right medication).
I still haven't been cleared to exercise yet, but I am feeling a lot better about myself, I currently weight 322. Which is a 35 pound loss. I have made a personal goal to be out of the 300's by the end of the year. I haven't weighed less than 300 in SEVEN years, so if I hit that goal, I will be extremely proud.
Also, I have been trying to get help with one of the main reasons why I am over weight and that is due to the abuse I endured as a small child by one of my family members. I actually am very proud to say that I have cut him out of my life and have not spoken to him in weeks. It is actually kind of freeing. I read that abusive kids can never heal when their abuser is always around. I am also considering going back to therapy to cure my emotional damage. I think I owe to myself and my husband and kids to become emotionally a stronger and better parent and wife.
Whew! That was long over due. Now that my crazy summer has winded down, I have plenty more time to blog! I look forward to catching up with all of you!