I know I have been conspicuously absent. I've had emails from people wondering how I am doing so it is definitely time to update.
I'd decided that I needed a break for a while with all this counting pounds. In honesty, I was getting very obsessive compulsive about the numbers on the scale to the point that I was getting depressed and neurotic. I'd gotten down to 141 lbs and could not lose that one pound to get to goal. My weight fluctuated and I started to get upset about it to the point that I was feeling a little off my rocker. I was literally crying about it and getting depressed. I was in a completely crappy mood upset with the number on the scale. There I was crying because I weighed 142 lbs. Okay, think about that for a moment- a year ago I would have *died* to be 142 lbs. There I was depressed and crying and hubby was trying to figure out why after losing 148 lbs, I was depressed. He was right logically. I should not have gotten so bummed out by that number on the scale.
Of course, getting upset, what did I do? I felt rebellious. I felt mad at the world. So I ate. And I ate and I ate. Totally the wrong thing to do of course, but then again I've never been one for coping with stress well without food now have I? So I went into a period of about a week and a half where I just said screw it all and ate what I want. Did I pay the price? Of course, I did.
I got up on the scale to 147 lbs. I felt crappy and tired. I was in a BAD MOOD and knew that I felt bad because I was eating bad. Every 4 months or so I go through a period like this and I always get back on track. Usually it is just a day or two of eating crap, so this was definitely the longest period of falling off program.
Then eventually, as it always does, my head came back around to reality and I got back to program and started using my head, eating right and definitely feeling better both physically and mentally.
I have been back on program for a week and have gone down to 143 lbs.
On top of this bad period that I had, my Father-in-Law has been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks now so that has made things a little busier as well with alot of eating on the run as we go to visit him nightly at the hospital. Then last weekend I had to do report cards. We've also just bought a camper so we were doing things to purchase that, stock it and we're going camping next week as well. And Lastly, it is the end of the year (only 9 more days of work to go) and it is a SUPER busy time with our last field trip (done!), report cards (done!), and our Kindergarten Graduation (coming up this week). It has just made thing very busy right now and while my head is now securely wrapped around everything weight loss wise, I'm just needing some time to breathe! LOL! So yes, I am alive and well.
My body seems really really resistant to moving past the 142-143 mark. It will take some good amount of time burning up the treadmill to get any lower and really, I am now too worried about it. I'm pretty happy with the way I look and I'm wearing a t-shirt size in medium and size 9/10 pants. If this is it in terms of weight loss, then I'm happy enough with that as I do really look pretty good and I'm healthy.
Dawn
New Pictures: Me at the school fun fair.
I know I have been conspicuously absent. I've had emails from people wondering how I am doing so it is definitely time to update.
I'd decided that I needed a break for a while with all this counting pounds. In honesty, I was getting very obsessive compulsive about the numbers on the scale to the point that I was getting depressed and neurotic. I'd gotten down to 141 lbs and could not lose that one pound to get to goal. My weight fluctuated and I started to get upset about it to the point that I was feeling a little off my rocker. I was literally crying about it and getting depressed. I was in a completely crappy mood upset with the number on the scale. There I was crying because I weighed 142 lbs. Okay, think about that for a moment- a year ago I would have *died* to be 142 lbs. There I was depressed and crying and hubby was trying to figure out why after losing 148 lbs, I was depressed. He was right logically. I should not have gotten so bummed out by that number on the scale.
Of course, getting upset, what did I do? I felt rebellious. I felt mad at the world. So I ate. And I ate and I ate. Totally the wrong thing to do of course, but then again I've never been one for coping with stress well without food now have I? So I went into a period of about a week and a half where I just said screw it all and ate what I want. Did I pay the price? Of course, I did.
I got up on the scale to 147 lbs. I felt crappy and tired. I was in a BAD MOOD and knew that I felt bad because I was eating bad. Every 4 months or so I go through a period like this and I always get back on track. Usually it is just a day or two of eating crap, so this was definitely the longest period of falling off program.
Then eventually, as it always does, my head came back around to reality and I got back to program and started using my head, eating right and definitely feeling better both physically and mentally.
I have been back on program for a week and have gone down to 143 lbs.
On top of this bad period that I had, my Father-in-Law has been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks now so that has made things a little busier as well with alot of eating on the run as we go to visit him nightly at the hospital. Then last weekend I had to do report cards. We've also just bought a camper so we were doing things to purchase that, stock it and we're going camping next week as well. And Lastly, it is the end of the year (only 9 more days of work to go) and it is a SUPER busy time with our last field trip (done!), report cards (done!), and our Kindergarten Graduation (coming up this week). It has just made thing very busy right now and while my head is now securely wrapped around everything weight loss wise, I'm just needing some time to breathe! LOL! So yes, I am alive and well.
My body seems really really resistant to moving past the 142-143 mark. It will take some good amount of time burning up the treadmill to get any lower and really, I am now too worried about it. I'm pretty happy with the way I look and I'm wearing a t-shirt size in medium and size 9/10 pants. If this is it in terms of weight loss, then I'm happy enough with that as I do really look pretty good and I'm healthy.
Dawn
New Pictures: Me at the school fun fair.