First challenge: I need a new blog name. "Tubby Tabby" isn't positive. It's a negative word, "tubby". Help me come up with a new name!
I haven't been great on blogging. That really makes me sad, because I do love it. I love writing. Of course, on here, my grammar isn't great and my sentenses run on. But that's why I love blogging, I don't have to get it all right. I can blabber on as much as I want, because no one is grading this, and friends are reading it. However, the sucky part of a personal blog, is the personal part. The part where I write about what is really going on in my life, and that makes me not blog. "Do another blog then!", one might say. No, because I want to blog about my personal life. I want this to be my outlet for close friends to read and know what is going on in my life.
Let me give you a quick update on the baby stuff. Charles and I are currently out of any fertility options. I am, of course, not saying there are NOT options, we are just currently out of options due to money. After a meeting with our doctor, the next option we have costs $5,000 for one shot at it. Frankly, we do not have that kind of money. However, on a positive note, there is a chance that more weight loss could result in my body working correctly. Of course, there is no garantee for that, just like there is no garantee that the fertility treatments would work. But losing weight is something I have to do regardless.
I have lost 50 pounds so far. The past month I have been at a standstill. One of my own doing. I had lost my motivation. I had slipped into a deep depression over this baby stuff. And since the holidays are coming up, it makes me even more sad that I don't have a baby to share that stuff with. Charles is really struggling too. It pains me to see him as sad as I am.
But after talking to the doctor, I feel remotivated to lose the weight. I went back to logging my food on Weight Watchers (something I haven't done in a month). I can do this.
This leads me to a challenge I want to put out for all who read this. I struggle so much with my self esteem. And my weight being a big factor in us getting pregnant puts a lot of pressure on me, which makes me feel worse about myself, when and if I do not lose weight. I feel so low about myself, I throw my hair in a ponytail, don't wear make up, wear sweats and a t-shirt.
So I have a challenge. Every day, no matter what, I am going to get dressed and do my hair. I will put on make-up. I will take a picture and upload it to my blog. (I don't know that I"ll upload every day. I might do a weekly dump of pictures). Along with my picture, I will write one thing I love about myself. It doesn't have to be appearance related, it can be anything about myself.
For anyone reading this: I CHALLENGE YOU TO DO THE SAME.
Please comment below and let me know if you are joining this challenge with me! There are no dates for this challenge, it can be started any time and end anytime. I am going to try to do this for as long as I can. Hopefully this will create a habit in me, a habit that I think positively about myself no matter what.