I posted a post right before this one. I deleted it after 5 minutes. It was just one huge pity party, and frankly it wasn't cool.
Lately, ever since being so alone all day this past month - I've become so jealous of other people, I've been quick to feel left out of things, I've been so quick to just focus on everything that I feel is going wrong and quick to focus on ways other people are hurting my feelings without them even knowing they are.
Point is, after talking to a wonderful friend, if I feel like I'm not feeling like I'm worth other people's time, then I need to be worth my OWN time. I need to take all that focus on other things, and turn it into myself. I need to make myself happy. I can't waste my time worrying about other people.
I am so sad lately, because I feel so lonely without Charles being here every day, so it's almost like I've been "mourning" the loss of past with him, how it used to be, with him here every night. But I need to come to terms with the fact that it isn't going to change til November. I need to stop having my own pity party and make the best of what I have.
I realize I didn't post my weigh in from Sunday. It was 335.4! That means, I lost the weight I gained last week, as well as 0.2 more pounds! I think that's good, if I do say so myself!
On a completely unrelated note - Does anyone watch the new Showtime Series - Web Therapy? It's a hoot.