People who lack self-esteem are unattractive. Period.
Who wants to be with a person that is constantly doubting himself and has no backbone whatsoever?
I'm tired of being that negative person who has a pity party every day because I just cannot for the life of me have any confidence in myself.
I have fucking lost 130 pounds, and I still doubt myself every single day. And it sucks. I hate it. I hate that I cannot believe in myself. And I know that it sounds corny, but that's just how it is. I want to be happy with what I've accomplished and proud of myself, but there's always that seed of doubt in the back of my mind that grabs a hold of me daily.
I'm always making jokes about myself; about how disgusting my loose skin is; about how I just suck at life in general; about how I am not attractive, and how retarded I am. It's sick and twisted. Because while I may be laughing on the outside, it's just further reinforcing my perception of myself.
I need to overhaul my mindset. Completely. I am worth it and I know that I am a fucking superstar.