I had a great weekend. Saturday I officially signed up for my half marathon in January 2010. I am so excited... and scared to death. Its that familiar feeling of failure and let downs that is creeping up on me. That little voice in my head that keeps saying 'YOU can't do that! You'll never be able to do THAT!'
That voice has been following me around for awhile now. 31 years to be precise. I knew it was there, but I never dreamed that anyone else could hear it... until this weekend. After signing me up for the half marathon my husband turned to me and said 'Now, don't go listening to that voice of yours that says you can't do it. Work hard and make me proud.'
HE can hear the voice in my head?? Oh good grief, what else has he heard!! After testing his gift by thinking naughty thoughts that he either never picked up... or was just REALLY not in the mood... I thought about it. He was right. I need to stop doubting what I can do. I needed to change my mindset. Start thinking outside of the comfy box.
"If you train hard, get serious and will be ready to run this thing to the end... then I will take the girls down the day of the race and we will be waiting for you at the finish line."
When my husband said this I was brought to tears. He knows I can do this... and he knows that if there was anyone I would want to do it for it is for him and the girls. To see them, see me , at the finish line... that would be worth every pain and stomach grumble. To have my husband be proud of me. To know that I could finish something that is this important to me....
At 5 o'clock this morning I was up and out of the house running at the track. I ran a 13 min/mile which is already 3 minutes off my fastest time. I sprinted up the bleachers 5 times and then headed home in time for hubby to go to work.
This will be my schedule for Mon, Tue, Wed and Thurs. On Saturday I will be going to the park trail and running my long runs with my friend Roni. This will give me Friday and Sundays off from running. Two good days for recovery.
I am tracking my food on Nutrimirror and making sure that I eat enough calories to keep me energized and losing pounds at the same time. I will be drinking 15 glasses of water a day and a multivitamin.
It's GO time. No more excuses. No more "I can't". It's time for 'I WILL'.