Ahhh a brain dump. I need a good brain dump. There’s been SO much going on that I don’t even know where to start!
Where do I start?
ok… the job. By now you may know I’m giving up the day time gig. I’m not officially done until August but I had a heart-to-heart with my boss and he’s aware of my intentions.
This really was a tough decision. I’m a worker. Jobs are safe. They have benefits. and fairly reliable pay checks. People work. It’s what we do. Right?
I can’t fathom being my own boss (again.. but I was bad at it the first time). It’s thrilling, exciting and scary all at once.
One of the things that pushed me in the self-employment direction was little guy. He’s starting kindergarten this year.
I know.. freaky.
As a working mom I feel I’ve been able to balance career, family and me time pretty well but school throws a whole new wrench into the works. I want to be actively involved in school and extra curricula activities with him and I really couldn’t see how to make that happen while working full time with a long commute. Oh! and maintaining the blogs AND hosting a conference . yea.. it’s just not humanly possible.
So I took the leap. I’ve worked too hard on my sites and the conference to just walk away for a grant funded temporary position. Not to mention, I truly love what I do on all my sites. So much I wish I could do it more. I WANT to do it more. Why am I fighting it?
Well… I guess I’m not anymore. The decisions been made and I couldn’t be happier!
Speaking of happy (cheesey transition, I know)… I have QUITE a summer planned and it all sort of kicks off this weekend when I travel up to Boston for the Run to Home base 5 mile race with my best friend. Any Boston people that want to catch up let me know! I’m looking for things to do!
The next weekend is Memorial Weekend and we are driving to Florida to take Little guy to Disney for his 5th birthday! I’m SO SO SO excited. He’s the perfect age and this will be our longest road trip to date with him. (note: we are road trip people as the husband doesn’t like to fly.. but I don’t mind.. we always make them fun!)
Geesh I think I’m getting into August already aren’t I? Come August I’ll be wrapping up my job, speaking at BlogHer and taking one more vacation. I know.. I can hardly believe it myself. THREE vacations this year. We are insane and insanely lucky. This one is with friends. Three families (ours included) are renting a house in the Outer Banks, NC. I’ve never been and I’m super excited to vacation with families that also have kids. I think it’ll be fun.
OK… if you made it this far then I think I can trust you with my last thing on this already too long brain dump of a post. It’s kind of like the elephant in the room, from my perspective at least. I’ve been wanting to blog about this for quite some time now. I just didn’t know how. I guess I should just come out and say it.
My jeans are getting tight.
Not the they-just-came-out-of-the-dryer tight but the oh-crap-I-can’t-wear-these-today tight.
phew.. I feel better confessing that. I’m trying REAL hard not to freak out but it’s tough. Those maintaining will relate I’m sure. Sometimes maintenance feels like…. I don’t know… fragile? There’s a better word but I can’t pull it right now.
I do know my weight is up. I’m actually evaluating a scale for a product review so I’ve been weighing myself. The problem is the scale runs 5lbs heavier then my normal scale so according to my current weight I’m over my Weight Watchers goal by at least 5lbs.
I’m not freaking out.. I’m not freaking out..
Really, I’m not.
I’m also NOT running back to POINTS. Don’t get me wrong. The points are a fabulous system and they taught me a lot. Key word there.. taught me. They were a teaching tool and it’s time for me to really put myself to the test. I can to do this on my own. I know what it is I need to do and I know why I’ve been gaining.
Why? You ask.
I’ve been overly snacking at night. Ordering more fried foods. Finishing the little guys food. Sneaking bites when I’m making sandwiches for lunch. Simply eating too much.. especially when not hungry.
However… I’ve also been working out like a madwomen. I’m in really good shape. I just ran a half marathon with no training . I weight training 2-3 days a week. I feel fit and strong. Which is why the extra weight isn’t bother me too too much. I know weight is only a number.. but the tight jeans? That’s a different story. Nothing is worse then outgrowing your wardrobe. I’ve done that too many times to count and I refuse to do it again.
So I decided to be proactive and make simple changes. I’m not going to do anything drastic to lose weight for losings sake. I’m simply going to start being more aware. Making better choices when eating out, cooking more and curbing the night time snacking.