For those of you who read my blog on a regular basis, or follow my tweets or Facebook, then you probably already know that I've been having anxiety and depression issues lately. I've been enrolled into day treatment at a local hospital to help monitor and improve my condition. I'm on my second week of being there every day, and I enjoy being there. I'm learning a lot... and find it to be quite helpful. I'm still having terrible anxiety and panic attacks, that seem to just pop up from no where.
Over a week ago there was a change in my medication... as the 25mg of Seroquel was making me a zombie... the psychiatrist decreased my Clonazepam from .5 to .25mg. At first I didn't notice much when it came to withdrawal... mostly just a headache. Now I'm in hell when it comes to the withdrawal. I feel so incredibly sick, headache, internal shakes, tense muscles, sore jaw from clenching it, shallow breathing, color changes, hearing changes, and actual panic attacks. Today... I lost count of how many attacks I had. I literally ran out of one of my groups and cried in the washroom. When am I going to start feeling better? The holidays are around the corner, and it's so hard to feel the holiday spirit.
It's a good thing that I had the 12 Days of Christmas Giveaways scheduled for quite some time... because I wouldn't be able to write with my condition at the moment. It took me over an hour to write this post, but I felt I should update those of you who may have questions as to how I'm doing. I will eventually be fine... on the long road to recovery.