1. How in the world am I ever going to lose all this weight?
2. Is it even possible for me to lose 200 pounds?
3. Why did I ever let myself gain this much weight to begin with?
4. How long is it going to take me to lose all this weight?
5. How much weight am I going to have to lose before it even becomes noticeable?
6. Do I look as fat in person as I do in the mirror or in photographs?
Those are questions that have been running through my mind lately. And I'm not so sure these questions... or the answers... are something that I want to deal with right now. These questions scare me. It's hard to admit to myself that I even
think about them. It's like I'm afraid if I admit to having these thoughts I will somehow sabotage myself because I am admitting weakness and insecurity and fear.
But... I must deal with these issues head on. Pretending that they do not exist is not going to help me. I cannot live in denial. So here I am... blogging about it.
Sometimes I'm afraid it will be impossible for me to lose all this weight. Sometimes I'm afraid it's going to take forever. And I get impatient.
Sometimes when I look in the mirror or look at a photograph of myself... I just want to throw up. I just look so
fat. I look like a big, fat blob of dough. I look like I just have so much weight to lose that it will be absolutely impossible for me to lose it all.
But... I know that none of my fears need to become my reality. The bottom line is:
1. I am going to lose weight by consistently counting calories and exercising.
2. It IS possible for me to lose 200 pounds. Others have done it. I can do it, too.
3. I gained this much weight because I ate too much of the wrong foods and I rarely exercised. I gave in to emotional eating on a regular basis. Ceasing these behaviors and adopting healthy ones will change my body and my life.
4. At a healthy rate of losing 2 lbs. per week, it will take me approximately 2 years to lose 200 pounds. But that's OK. It took me close to 40 years to gain it all. In the scheme of things... two years is
nothing. Two years is an investment in my future.
5. I'm probably going to have to lose about 50 pounds before it becomes noticeable to others. But what difference does it make? It is
already noticeable
to me. It's noticeable when it's easier to walk up a flight of steps or crawl out of bed in the morning. It's noticeable when it's easier to clean the house or make the bed. It's noticeable when I'm able to exercise for longer periods of time.
6. Yes, I probably do look as fat in person as I do in the mirror or in photographs. That's one of the reasons I'm working on losing weight. Deal with it, Chubby Chick! One day you will
not cringe at the site of a mirror... and you will
not avoid the camera at all costs! Better days are ahead!
I feel better now. Honesty is the best policy. Dealing with my issues and keepin' it real is the only way I am ever going to defeat this weight problem once and for all. And that is what I am determined to do.
So... stick around. Things just might get pretty interesting around here! hehe
1. How in the world am I ever going to lose all this weight?
2. Is it even possible for me to lose 200 pounds?
3. Why did I ever let myself gain this much weight to begin with?
4. How long is it going to take me to lose all this weight?
5. How much weight am I going to have to lose before it even becomes noticeable?
6. Do I look as fat in person as I do in the mirror or in photographs?
Those are questions that have been running through my mind lately. And I'm not so sure these questions... or the answers... are something that I want to deal with right now. These questions scare me. It's hard to admit to myself that I even think about them. It's like I'm afraid if I admit to having these thoughts I will somehow sabotage myself because I am admitting weakness and insecurity and fear.
But... I must deal with these issues head on. Pretending that they do not exist is not going to help me. I cannot live in denial. So here I am... blogging about it.
Sometimes I'm afraid it will be impossible for me to lose all this weight. Sometimes I'm afraid it's going to take forever. And I get impatient.
Sometimes when I look in the mirror or look at a photograph of myself... I just want to throw up. I just look so fat. I look like a big, fat blob of dough. I look like I just have so much weight to lose that it will be absolutely impossible for me to lose it all.
But... I know that none of my fears need to become my reality. The bottom line is:
1. I am going to lose weight by consistently counting calories and exercising.
2. It IS possible for me to lose 200 pounds. Others have done it. I can do it, too.
3. I gained this much weight because I ate too much of the wrong foods and I rarely exercised. I gave in to emotional eating on a regular basis. Ceasing these behaviors and adopting healthy ones will change my body and my life.
4. At a healthy rate of losing 2 lbs. per week, it will take me approximately 2 years to lose 200 pounds. But that's OK. It took me close to 40 years to gain it all. In the scheme of things... two years is nothing. Two years is an investment in my future.
5. I'm probably going to have to lose about 50 pounds before it becomes noticeable to others. But what difference does it make? It is already noticeable to me. It's noticeable when it's easier to walk up a flight of steps or crawl out of bed in the morning. It's noticeable when it's easier to clean the house or make the bed. It's noticeable when I'm able to exercise for longer periods of time.
6. Yes, I probably do look as fat in person as I do in the mirror or in photographs. That's one of the reasons I'm working on losing weight. Deal with it, Chubby Chick! One day you will not cringe at the site of a mirror... and you will not avoid the camera at all costs! Better days are ahead!
I feel better now. Honesty is the best policy. Dealing with my issues and keepin' it real is the only way I am ever going to defeat this weight problem once and for all. And that is what I am determined to do.
So... stick around. Things just might get pretty interesting around here! hehe