Well it happened and I have been too ashamed to blog about it until now. I fell off the wagon...hard! My grandmother died, I went away to the funeral and it all fell to hell. This was in May. It is now November and I am hating myself again. I have gained back the weight I lost and I am not a happy camper. What I swore would only be 1 week while I was away with my family turned into Spring and then turned into Summer and with vacation and how hard it is to eat well at the cottage, I put off getting back on the wagon until Labour Day. That has now come and gone and the winter blues have set in and unhappiness with my body is returning.
After a long, heartfelt talk with my now Fiance (yes we got engaged) and how I want to look really good for our wedding and lose my double chin, I decided if I don't do anything about my weight, and my wedding comes, I will be so unbelievably dissapointed in myself. Let me make this clear, I am not losing weight to be skinny on my wedding day, I am using my wedding day as my motivation, as my end date on when this has to be done by.
My Fiance is a very healthy, very fit guy who works out very hard at least 3-4 days a week. I don't get where his motivation comes from, but I applaud him. In a moment of honesty he told me he loves me as I am but my tummy fat is what concern him, as whatever tummy fat I can pinch, about twice as much is coating my abdomen and organs...which scared the crap out of me. He advised me to lose as much weight as it took to get my tummy down 2-3 inches, which on my small 5'2'' frame is about 20 pounds.
As I start right now, I weight in at 168.2 pounds this morning. My goal is 1/2 a pound a week using Weight Watchers. My goal weight is 150 and which time I will reevaluate if I want to continue losing or maintain. That means August of 2012 I should be at my goal weight, with a year to spare before my wedding, time for toning and keeping the weight off.
Anyways, I will keep you updated on my journey, as I am not more motivated then ever. Your comments and thoughts are greatly appreciated as they keep me going.
And don't worry I will keep my new recipes coming!