I have certainly struggled in order to get to the point in which I could join this group. 20 months ago, I had a baby boy. I did not have an easy time losing the weight that came with the pregnancy. I was having a terrible time mixing mother, wife, and self as well. I felt like I was nothing more than a thing put on earth to care for a constantly crying little child. Of course, little did I know that Post Partum Depression was plagueing me. I just thought there was something wrong with me, as a person. I couldn’t be happy, I wasn’t thin, I wasn’t a good mom, I wasn't contributing. I struggled overwhelmingly with trying to find myself again.
My doctor set me up with a dietician, I started taking Muay Thai kickboxing, I started walking a lot, and finally, I found 2 yoga classes to join. That is where things really started to turn for me. I felt stupid in kickboxing; I have never been known for my athleticism. I felt stupid because I was struggling to lose the 65 pounds I put on with my son and the other mommies I knew seemed to have no trouble dropping their baby weight. But I felt so good when I got down on the mat and moved in sync with the yoga teacher and the other students. What a difference it made in my life. I felt better mentally, which was something wonderful in itself. I felt better physically, which was a whole ‘nother thing.
It took a year and a half, but the baby weight is gone. I have lost 65 pounds. Was it easy? Never. Was it worth it? of course; I have gained knowledge to eat better, muscle, endurance, and I've lost the “fat” pants. I still do not have the youthful body I once did but I do have somethingâ€”pride in what I’ve accomplished so far. Now, I take the more advanced kickboxing classes; I never thought I’d see the day. Now, I search for yoga classes to take; I just love them so much. I shop and the clothes fit. I find myself wondering what more I can accomplish; there’s so much I can be. I know that now.