Ok so by now you know that I've been struggling. I got on the scale today and I almost fell off when I saw the big 191.0 staring back at me. I couldn't believe it, I so badly wanted out of the 180's, but not like this. I know I've been talking about getting back on track, well it's time to just stop saying it and actually do it. I started my food journal again today. I plan on going to the gym first thing in the morning. I feel ashamed of myself, I can't believe I let this happen. I think everything seem to come to me to easy when I was at my best, that I almost felt invincible, like there was no way I couldn't lose the weight. Well obviously I know I can fail, and that's not how I want to see this end. So I'm gonna pick my self up all 191 lbs of me and get moving.