I feel things are starting to get better. At least mentally. I did not get up and work out this morning, but I definitely feel a whole lot better. I did not realize how much my thoughts were really bringing me down. I know we are all going to die but I want to make this ride fun. I want to do things I want to do and enjoy myself in the process. So I'm working on it. I have the ability to find fun in just about anything so I need to do that more. So I'm working on it. I will conquer this and I will get back to where I want to be.