So far this week I've done a few things to push me towards my goals. Concerning the marathon I've contacted the race director and asked about the time and have learned that the marathon is definitely 8 hours for walkers and that the time keeper generally stays past the 8 hours and keeps the finish line open at least an additional 30 mins. So I know that will give me the confidence to do this marathon knowing I will be able to finish with an actual time.
Tonight's TOPS meeting was good too. I'm hopefully helping to motivate my group with some new things for the year. This week it's eating A-C grade foods. It was a list I found online and though I don't agree with everything I think it's a good way for my chapter (and myself) to eat less processed foods this week. I'm just feeling more motivated about so many things.
Also, still listening to "the power of now" and also "psycho-cybernetics" which talks about redefining our self image. I really do realize that it still all goes back to that internal recording I have about myself. Inside I'm still that fat woman not the woman I am now. When I was working with Tara she talked about actually burying that woman for good. I really couldn't grasp the concept but I think I am getting closer to the point of laying her to rest once and for all.
Anyway, life is good, I'm doing my best to live in the "now" and today was a good day.
Till next time...