Giving Myself A Scolding & Meet The Parents Horror
Posted Oct 08 2010 12:56pm
Hello my URL lovers,
I had a MAJOR freak out this morning. MAJOR. But more on that later.
I need to get it together. I haven’t been horrible but there is no structure to my eating and that’s just not acceptable. Everyone knows that sticking to a plan, whether it be tracking, portion control, calorie counting whatever it may be, works. For me, drinking ocean loads of water, tracking and being very strict with my portions works. So that is what I need to do. I can’t keep doing things half assed and expecting grand results. I need to let my body tell me when I’m satisfied, not when I’m stuffed and feel like I’m going to puke. I think drinking more water will help with this.
Now, onto my freak out. Let me start off by saying I’m VERY private about my relationships. As Kanye would say, I prefer to keep my love locked down. I don’t know why, but I am. Me and the man work on a tried and true schedule of doing things when we can be alone, it works for us. That being said..
The man: So. I have something to tell you.
Me: That you’re tricking off next chicks? *hahahahaha*
The man: No. My mom wants you to come over. Soon. She wants to meet you.
Insert: absolute horror. Ok, I know, I sound silly. But really, if you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you’re probably aware that I’m not the most sane/reasonable/rational person there is. I do not want to meet his family and I don’t want him to meet mine. Not yet at least. And there is one thing for sure…I cannot meet his family at this weight and size. Again, I know it’s silly and I’m lovely but no, it can’t happen. I have yet to express this to man, but I’m assuming it will come up and I can stall, in the nicest way possible. Ugh, I hate how ridiculous I can be.
I’m dreading Weigh In Monday, but I’ll do it because I have to, gain or loss.