What a day it's been today! I'm sure most everyone who is reading this blog can relate with me when I say these three simple words: We've had snow.
LOTS of snow. And today, as it was snowing all day long, I went out & delivered 26 loaves of bread ( NO I didn't bake it~ when I can buy a beautiful fresh loaf of pumpkin bread at Nibbley's for $7/ea you think I'd bake? HA!) to Eric's colleagues. It's a freakin' Christmas MIRACLE that I didn't bust my butt while I was trudging around in my FABULOUS heeled boots.
But the BEST part of my day? Coming home & seeing all of the support I received from people I've never met. THANK YOU. And you, my new friends, had some great advice! I forgot all about the "eat before you go" exercise- that's something I could definitely do. And all of your sweet compliments- feel free to come by here & drop those off, anytime!
My friend Tina read my blog today & when I was out doing the marketing I stopped by her office & we chatted for a minute. (HEY TINA!!) I loved the advice she gave me: Look at an old picture of yourself and remember how you felt in that picture. Not how you looked, but how you felt about yourself at that time.
I have not always had a weight problem. I know what it feels like to be thin & feel attractive. I look at pictures from 6 months ago or even further back & see a smile on the face of a very uncomfortable woman. I was uncomfortable in the skin I was wearing. I knew, as I smiled, that I would not like the image being taken. I learned how to live and breathe, being consciously ashamed. As I gained weight I also moved to another part of the country where people knew nothing different of me- I had always been a "big woman" to them. There was no other expectation of me. And I assumed that role and faded into being someone I didn't want to be. The Amy I had always known disappeared and I accepted that.
Not anymore. Today, December 22, 2008, I am sexy. Today I can exercise for over an hour without gasping for breath or getting fatigued. Today I don't accept this anymore. I am strong. I am REALLY funny. (you'd love me in person.) I am seeing a face in the mirror that is attractive & looks young. People tell me that I now have a "glow" I didn't have before. My sweet husband is excited that he can easily wrap his arms around my body. Tomorrow is going to be even better.