Before I decided to stop keeping track of my calories yesterday, I was pretty much obsessed with counting calories. I would estimate the number of calories for every single piece of food that went into my mouth (except when I was drunk or sometimes when I binged). Sure I held myself accountable by doing this, but it was a tiring procedure.
Adding up numbers was especially annoying when I went out to eat. Imagine having to do addition every time you pick up a piece of sesame chicken. Yea, not fun. Counting calories pretty much disengaged me from being able to enjoy the food I ordered and the company around me.
Turning off the calculator in my brain has been extremely liberating. I don't think about food nearly as much; I just eat when I'm hungry and that's that.
I really think my recent binging behavior was a product of all the worrying and obsessing that comes naturally with counting calories. Letting this part of me go may be a step in the right direction. I'm not by any means trying to bash calorie counting, because I do believe it has its time and place, but for me personally, I'm going to try to move on.
As far as clean eating goes, it has helped simplify my diet, and could possibly be a contributing factor towards making me less obsessive about food as well (not entirely sure about this yet). I don't have to think about how many cookies I can have without ruining my day or triggering a binge; I just don't eat that stuff. I'm going to continue this clean eating experiment until I fail, and then I'm going to try incorporating junk food into this anti-calorie counting diet of mine.
Thank you everyone for all the great recommendations. I'm going to "try" to make a new recipe off one of these websites at least twice a week. I'm so bored of eating the same stuff everyday.
Days without junk food: 1 Days without counting calories: 1