I am on a weight loss diet and I am hanging on by a thread.
I went on this diet originally to lose weight for my niece's wedding. I just wasn't going to show up with fifty extra pounds of fat on me. All the relatives would be there, and I'd be mortified.
This motivated me tremendously. I lost thirty-nine pounds by the wedding and I felt great.
The reverse weight gain trend started right at the wedding itself. I looked good, but my sister (mother of the bride) looked better. She's thin and beautiful, and always has been. I got this hopeless feeling, and I ate all I could eat at the wedding.
That was just before Christmas and I'm still on an overeating rampage.
I've had this feeling before. My little sister has always outshone me, at least that's how I see it. She's sweet and kind and it's not her fault, but I've always felt inferior in the looks department.
I'm starting to question this competitive way I get with her. I want to be my own best, not better than my sister. This is not an easy issue to face, but I'm trying to finally resolve it. That's the only way I can stop doing this and not gain all the weight back that I worked so very hard to lose.