Compulsive overeating makes you feel out of control
Posted Apr 11 2009 12:56am
I saw a 300 lb model on TV yesterday. She was saying you've got to love yourself, stop hating yourself and your own body.
But I can't love myself this way. It's not because of my weight, or how I look. I think I look okay. Maybe by the latest standards I'm too fat - 20 lbs or so. I think I look pretty good at 130 lbs.
The reason I'm unhappy with myself is that I eat compulsively. I eat when I don't want to eat. There's a driven quality to it, and that's what I don't like. I don't feel in control, and for me it's an unpleasant feeling.
Half the time I eat that way I'm not at all hungry. So that's what I don't like, and that's what I need to fix.