4. Challenge the Food Police Scream a loud "NO" to
thoughts in your head that declare you're "good" for eating under 1000
calories or "bad" because you ate a piece of chocolate cake. The Food
Police monitor the unreasonable rules that dieting has created. The
police station is housed deep in your psyche, and its loud speaker
shouts negative barbs, hopeless phrases, and guilt-provoking
indictments. Chasing the Food Police away is a critical step in
returning to Intuitive Eating.
It's kind of ironic
that this is the next intuitive eating principle to focus on, as I have
subconsciously been doing this for the last 2 or so weeks. I am still
counting my calories, but it is more or a less a tracking mechanism, a
memory thing, as opposed to a numbers game. I go over my allotted
calories pretty much every day. Sometimes it is by 100, sometimes by
quite a bit more. The most I eat in a day is like 2200, but those are
usually the days when I work out pretty hard. I average about 1800-2000
calories a day, a far cry from the 1200 I was living on in the summer.
had a lot of unreasonable rules in the summer. No eating after 8pm.
Carbs at only one meal a day. Every meal has to be under 300 calories.
Yadda Yadda. I restricted, restricted, restricted. The end result?
Boring food. Boring life. I hardly cooked anything exciting. I never
baked with love. I wasn't "allowed" to do that. I needed to be a size 2.
Being a size 2 meant unreasonable things. I managed to keep it up for a
few months. But it just became to much. I loosened the reigns, then
instantly felt bad for doing so. But now, I don't feel bad.
If I want a taste of something that tasted delicious but isn't good for me, I will have it, savor it, and end it at that. That is how life should be lived.
As with any lifestyle modification, sending away the negative talk takes attentiveness and time. It is a work in progress, and will continue to be for sometime. You can't wipe 19 years of unhealthiness away in 2 years. Yes, you can make strides, but they can easily be broken without consistency.
In other news... Just finished my 14km run! Following a day shift nonetheless. Been up since 5:30am. BOOM. Not going to lie, I had zero motivation to do it, and even after finishing, I wish I would have been relaxing instead of running, but I am proud of myself for my level of dedication. We won't discuss time because I ended up walking quite a bit, but the km's were covered, and thats what matters most!
I treated myself to Red Robin following. I had never been, but their garden burger intrigued me, so I figured it was perfect to go following a long run since their food is quite unhealthy. Burger definitely didn't live up to my hopes. Fries were okay.... I had a 1/2 order of sweet potatoes, 1/2 order of classic fries. The classic fries were too greasy, but they sweet potato fries were pretty good. I probably wont ever go back there by my own deciding... it just wasn't that great. To be honest, I like Harvey's veggie burger and frings a hell of a lot more than I liked Red Robin. Live and Learn and Eat :)