Reading my post from Saturday is actually hilarious to me today.
I said:"I am not looking to eat anything in particular or 'be bad' I just don't want to ruin Easter and time with my family with putting myself under pressure to lose this week."
What actually happened: I ATE EVERYTHING! Over the last two days I have eaten pizza (the delivered kind!), had beers, ate chocolate, potato chips, BREAD BREAD BREAD, drank some wine and to top it off I just had some fries and fried chicken! Wow...so gross when it is staring me in the face!
However, one thing I am proud of is that I do not feel one ounce of guilt. I would not change a thing. I am not weighing myself today or even going to my weigh in tomorrow. Not because I don't want to face the consequences but because I know that seeing the scale back in the 180s won't do me any good. I would get on that scale, see the number up and be saturated in shame immediately. That feeling will serve no positive purpose.
This weekend I had FUN. Whatever happened to my weight as a result is of no concern to me. The fun I had this weekend and the food I ate is not going to change how I live my life now. This week I will be right back to where I am every other day, next week I will weigh in as usual and all I will remember about this Easter is how I had a blast with my husband and family and savored every bite!
I have been doing this long enough to know now that if I weighed in and saw a gain that would be my memory of Easter! No thanks!