It's been about two months since I posted that I lost 100 pounds, and since then I've gained 6.5 pounds. I'm so frustrated and just pissed off at everything. It doesn't make any sense at all. I eat extremely healthy, have a calorie deficit, and exercise daily. What the hell!
I'm just angry at life in general. Really, I am. It's not a good feeling to be pissed off at people, at yourself, and at the way things are going in your life. I try to be positive, but then someone says something that irritates me or something bad happens to me, and I just get pissed off.
I want to be able to take a chill pill...Let thing goes. Laugh things off. Just be happy. But no matter how hard I try the negativity gets to me, and I just get so angry and disheartened.
Everyone thinks I'm such a downer, and I'm not disagreeing with them. Yea, I'm really not fun to be around right now. And I'm sure the tone of this blog has taken a turn for the worst, so I apologize for that. But do people think that continuing to insult me is going to make me better? Talk about kicking a man when he is already down.
Anyway, I don't know about the diet right now. There have been many times in the past few days where I just wanted to say screw it, but I know that's not what I really want...