Something must be in the air because I've been a little "off." Wednesday was just that kind of day. Even now as I write this, I feel like I'm fumbling through with no real direction of where this is going. I usually get this way when I start to feel overwhelmed...too many plates spinning at the moment. My job is a huge culprit right now with about twenty projects swirling around in various phases waiting on answers, revisions, price quotes, printing, placement etc. I have one of those jobs where so many decisions and deadlines are dependent on the work of others. I just get to manipulate it into one final, pretty, effective package. Right now, none of my projects feel "pretty" at the moment. It's hard to prioritze so many things when they're all "important" to each client.
In addition to all of the work stuff, I've got many wedding plates spinning at the same time...Invitations are still not finished or mailed (I'm working with my designer at work and we're just swamped with real stuff), we haven't picked our wedding bands, Shawn has to finalize his tux decision, I'm working on hotel rates for guests, I have to book my flights home for my shower and the wedding, Shawn also has to work on honeymoon (he's keeping certain elements a surprise)...blah, blah, blah.
We've got tons of house projects we continue to tackle before my parents arrive for a week at the end of the month. Light fixtures, bedding, punch list items, artwork, dining room tables, electronic equipment, etc.
This general feeling of being overwhelmed and erratic sometimes makes way for apathy. I tend to turn down the "I don't care" road even though I really do care...About most of it. Well, the big stuff at least. Unfortunately right now, it all seems like "big stuff." The bottom line is that it will all be taken care of one way or another.
It was funny because I've even seen it manifest itself into my training a little bit this week. Yesterday, I was going to get up for 7am spin class, but just didn't feel like it. I forced myself to go to a Noon Spin Class even though I hate working out at lunch. I was better for it afterward. Then, this morning I heard it raining at about 5:15am. I was going to get up for Gazelles, but actually turned off the alarm when I heard the rain. Naturally, my busy brain kicked in and I couldn't sleep anyways. Plus, it actually stopped raining 10 minutes later. I got up late and dragged my butt down to Runtex for our Tempo Run amidst the "I Don't Care" attitude.
I'm glad I did...
I'll write a full report later after I pick up some of the plates around me that are falling down. Perhaps Shawn and I should register for some china after all.