The last three months have brought with them a quiet confidence that puts me in a much better frame of mind than I was post-Lake Placid. My coach in college also used to say "Fake it till you make it Kim". Her statement basically meant that until you have the real confidence to strut in like you own the place and are ready to compete with the best, well, then you fake that you do. She knew that over time the real confidence would come and we would no longer have to fake it. We would have the results to back it up.
One of the best parts is having a coach that knows you inside and out is that you can trust their pre-race plan to help you HAVE that race you are capable of having. If you do have this (and you should), then you realize when they give you a plan that says hold XXX watts on the bike or go out at XX:XX on the run that there is no question that you can do it. That's where I am right now. I know 100% that coach Jesse is extremely familiar with my training variables and what I can do at this race. He would never put me in over my head, but he also won't hold me back. It takes a lot of my thought process out of it which is good for a rookie pro who has to stand next to Ironman Champions and such!
Just like my initial quote, I do believe that we shouldn't be "afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most." Turning pro in this sport did scare me, but it no longer does. I can do this and over time my results will show that. One race doesn't a season make, good or bad. It's consistency over time, learning from those mistakes and enjoying this process.
One last quote that I love..
“Everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.” ― Andy Rooney
Yep. Agree. So, whatever your doing, realize that even what some would term "failure" is part of this process. Make peace with the fact that it is not going to happen overnight. It will be sometimes long, sometimes painstaking and sometimes it will challenge every fiber of your being but in the end, it will be worth it.
My friend Brittany and I at Rev 3
Oh.. and by the way.. I kicked that swim test's hiney last Friday! 38 second 1000 yrd PR! When it hurt, I just swam harder! It was a victory for sure! Here's to hoping it translates in two weeks!
Thanks for the encouraging comments to those who follow.. those who love me and to those who never give up on their dreams - thanks to you too! You inspire me.