For these many years I have looked to Lance as an example of a human that is above and beyond the rest of us in tenacity, drive, physical capability, and an ability to handle pain.
I was truly relieved when the initial investigation was concluded with negative results. My hero remained unsullied.
I smiled as I followed his experience in the world of marathons. I could relate to his feelings of pain and self questioning as to why he would ever want to enter such an event again.
And then, when he decided to take on triathlon, I felt once again that anything is possible. Of course having the physical and mental attributes of a Lance Armstrong does help the situation.
When the latest investigation began I experienced trepidation and hoped that this one would also lead to nothing. After all, Lance has moved on from bike racing, so what was the point?
As findings began to dribble out I felt an increasing sense of dread and sadness. Another hero is about to be brought down. What does that say for the rest of us?
And now, with the release of the bludgeoning, sickening, troubling report it appears to have happened. Many will argue that this is a good thing, and others will take a counter view.
Does that make me feel stupid and used for buying into Lance over all these years? Actually no. He was one of the reasons I got back on the bike and entered triathlon with passion, spirit and joy.
So I feel no sadness for Lance Armstrong. He has become phenomenally wealthy; able to travel the world in style via private jets. By many accounts he seems to have exorcized his personal demons and has begun to become comfortable in his own skin.
And as for me, I have improved my ability to not allow the actions or words of others to determine my own self worth. I am happy and thankful for the years of enjoyment that Lance Armstrong brought me, and admire the philanthropical work he has been able to accomplish.
And I will follow any new Lance Armstrong revelations with a bit of detachment.
What ever will be, will be.
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