Mooseman Half Ironman 2009--I can't pinpoint this one. But I felt like superwoman from start to finish. It was a race I'll always remember. Even the song that was stuck in my head when I raced.
post-race 'ice bath' with my brother Jeff.
Every single year I have so many amazing new memories added. I wish I could tell you about one favorite race with my boys screaming on the sidelines. But I can't. Because they are there all the time. My parents are usually with them and of course, Mark. I have the best supporters. I have posters ( thanks to my dear friend Marisa) and notes and cards of good luck from my family filling my drawers. They are always there.... that is my best for every race.
look at this poster-- out on the run course in LP. Happiest Mom around... And can you read the one Nick is holding? " You are gunu win this thing. love nick go go go" almost babe, almost.
I can't begin to talk about all my favorite and best moments. This trip has been so rewarding for me.
And yet... here I sit... heading into 2012....
I'm older and wiser. I'm experienced and I'm still full of drive. Last year was so incredible for me, performance-wise. It all came together in so many ways. The thing that I need to point out is that this didn't happen over night. I have, in some ways, been working towards my big 'wins' last year, my whole life.
Here I am now. Arguably in better shape than I ever have been in my life. I am ready for this season. I am able and willing to do my best again. New races and new adventures are on my plan.
All I need is to keep the faith. Some days I have it. I feel it and I know, deep down, that I still have what it takes. After all, it was only 6 months ago that I had the most amazing day out in Hawaii. It was only 9 months ago that I smashed my old Ironman PR and nearly took home the gold. Me? It still makes me wonder..how? How did that happen? I'm old! Right?
I honestly do 'double takes' with myself at times. I start to think about my goals and what I want to achieve. I get fired up when I read about other performances and I decide, oh yea! I can do that! Yes!! If She can, I Can! And then I stop... and I realize..wait. She is only 34 or 37 or 29. I, am not. Who do you think you are Ange? You are done! You are joking yourself!! You had your year... that's it! It was just lucky that last year was that good. You have reached your potential! You are past your prime and dont' fight it! Take what you did and be proud and move on...."
Um... who was that? Where does that mean soyouthinkit'stimetothrowinthetowel voice come from?
I am not ready to throw in the towel! If I was faster last year, why can't I be faster this year? Right?
I believe in myself. I do. I know I still have it. Sure, some days I feel old and creaky. And yet, other days, this firey animal comes alive and I crush workouts like they were written for my kids. Ha! Take that! I am not ready to sit down and accept the science of aging. Not me.
I believe in me.... And I think that is all it takes.