First of all, let me say thank you. Thanks to all of you who posted a comment on my last post or who sent me a tweet or an email. I continue to be blown away by how supportive the blog world is, and it means so much to me. Sometimes I hesitate to write posts like that because I don't want people to think I'm fishing for empathy. But I think, for myself, it is more important to be real even if it's not always pretty. I think most of you really appreciate that more than a fake smile and a cute picture. Anyway, thanks.
We had a snow day here today. I would post a picture, but it would just look like all of the other snowy pictures I have posted this winter. It's white, it's cold and it's EVERYWHERE!! (I am done with winter, in case you were wondering.) Despite all of the snow that has fallen this winter, we have only had 3 snow days total. Usually a snow day is a pain in the neck, because if I have to drive to Ithaca, well, it takes a really long time. Also, a snow day on a work day means Ryan has to go to daycare all day, which is not ideal. Today, however, Ithaca College was also delayed until noon, so I bagged the trip altogether, told the boys we were having a home day, and made a big pot of french press coffee. This snow day was a gift that I so needed. A chance to have a great day with the boys and rejuvenate my own battered psyche.
The first order of the day (after the coffee was made, of course) was to create the snow day schedule. This was the first time I've ever done this, but it was a great idea. I planned some crafts, some painting time, some reading, sledding, free time, rest time and homework time. It went great. We pretty much stayed with the schedule until we decided to venture out to Barnes and Noble for some reward books this afternoon. I didn't get a whole lot done, but that was not really the point of the day. The three of us had a great day, with very little fighting and hardly any vegging in front of the tv.
It is days like this that make me realize two things
Being a stay-at-home mom is a really hard job if you are good at it.
I'm very glad I am not a stay-at-home mom.
There are a lot of reasons I don't think I would be very good at being a full-time stay-at-home mom, and I don't really want to go into that. But I will say, if I were, my house would be a wreck, I would spend way too much time online, and I would probably be very overweight. I know...kind of counterintuitive, but it's just my nature, I think.
Having said that though, I have started to really take a hard look at how much I am doing and letting some things go. This is not an easy task, because I rarely take anything on that I don't feel very passionate about. But, this past week has really opened my eyes to how much time and energy I need to have available to get the most important things in my life done well.
So the snow day was productive in the sense that we had a great day, I was able to get my head put on a little straighter, and, by far the one of the biggest victories of the day, I didn't overeat and was even able to give my kids some thin mint cookies without eating one myself. Now that is a good day.