I want to race like the wind again. I want to feel the anticipation of the starting line and the wind in my hair as I dig into the places I can only find between the start and the finish. Where I find out new things about myself and why I love this sport. Where pain and I become one and we make friends in a weird and strange way. Believe it or not, that's where I find part of my joy. Where I feel close to my maker and understanding the intensity of his suffering more deeply. Nothing peels away the layers of my character quite like when I'm out there. I miss that place. It's not always easy to find that kind of peace and when you do, you have to take it where you can get it and hold on to it tightly.
So many things in this word break our heart. Things and people beat us down and try to strip us of our dreams. It's cruel, but it's just the way life works. One day here, the next day gone, people walk out of our lives either willingly or unwillingly and frankly, we are never the same. Some love stories are short, but that doesn't mean there is any less love in them. Knowing that our dreams are worth holding on to, that their possibilities are endless and that nothing is truly impossible should keep us patiently waiting, working and believing even when the odds aren't in our favor. I believe in my dreams, I did once, and I do again. I believe in the power of the human spirit and I believe in the goodness of people, supporting each other and helping each other along their way.
For now, I'm just waiting.. patiently for my turn to get out there and test myself once again. Believe in the plan my friends, the calling for your life. Find the places where you feel it near to you and hold on to them. Life is way to short to do what others think you should because "that's what you've always done."
Life can get pretty rough sometimes, but don't let it break your heart.
Though heavily we bledStill on we crawlTry to catch a cannonballAnd a slowly burning tideThrough my veins it's flowingFrom my shipwreck I heard her callAnd she sangWhen you're tired of aiming your arrows,Still you never hit the markEven in your rains and shadowsStill we're never gonna partCome on over babyDon't let it brake your heartDon't let it break your heart
Coldplay.. Don't Let It Break Your Heart