PTSD Survivors Speak: A View of Healing Process, Part 2
Posted Jan 20 2010 12:00am
Wednesday, January 20th, 2010 •
Last week Marty shared with us a great deal of information about what he’s learned that has helped him progress forward with his PTSD recovery and lessen his symptoms. Today, he continues by showing us his actual routine, plus a few final thoughts about things to consider.
My routine for the next year went like this:
After a year I had improved and was on my way. I have found that the damaged, unlovable soul I always knew as me was just a perfect kid raised by violent, narcissistic parents. I discovered so much about myself I never knew. I could see my good qualities and appreciate so much more of myself. Somehow I became proud of me and what I was. I worried so much less. I learned during meditation I could focus the mind on the things that would benefit me. ( Take a moment to think of how many times intrusive thoughts have spoiled everything for you. These thoughts do not have the best for you in mind.)
I learned that thoughts are not dangerous at all. It is the emotion connected to it in our amygdala. Somewhere along the way I learned to focus my mind on the present. When thoughts come up now wherever I am, it is a simple procedure of observing the thoughts and see if I agree with what the conscious mind has brought forth. You will learn to not trust the conscious mind or the thoughts as even being true. PTSD is illogical. MY little trick was to think of pink elephants. Pink elephant thoughts are as dangerous as our most feared trigger. It is true. Meditation taught me this. I have no respect for thoughts coming forward now. I pick my own thoughts and life.
My path was helped by a faith that what I was doing would help. There are many times when you think you will never heal. You find out that troubled times are the best chance to improve. This is hard to believe at first, I know. Relapses are inevitable. Be confident if you take this path long enough it will change your life permanently.
I could go on or expand on all my positive, learning experiences and Iwould be glad to help anyone or answer any questions. I like to give back and help others. You can reach me at: email@example.com Good luck.
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