Alright, first I need to thank everyone for contributing their tips for running in the rain. So much great insight that I will apply to my running at some point!
Sadly, I did not actually use those this week… I couldn’t get up the proper mindset to go run in the rain, so I did a couple runs on the treadmill. And those felt so hard! I have no idea how I did so many miles on that blasted thing a couple years ago, but this week it felt like torture. My treadmill is still desperately in need of service; it squeals and grinds and groans; all things that make the whole experience even more disconcerting.
This whole week I’ve been feeling crummy anyway. The gloomy and sad feeling from last week carried into this week, something that probably wasn’t helped at all by the cloudy, wet, dark days we had all week. Las Vegas received more rain this week than we did in the entire year last year. Granted, this TONS of rain doesn’t even compare to some parts of the country, but for us it was really abnormal. And since we never get rain, the ground is so dry the moisture doesn’t just soak in right away, but it rolls away into various flood channels built into the city. Roads turn into rivers and small lakes form at various corners. I think the whole city felt grumpy.
In addition to feeling down, I just haven’t felt right this week. My brain feels foggy, my head feels like it’s clamped into a vice, my heart has felt fluttery and my breathing has been labored. I don’t know if it’s all a reaction to stress (because I’ve definitely been letting stressful things get to me, and been letting things that shouldn’t be stressful affect me) or if I have something else physically wrong. It’s frustrating. And when people tell me I have to “let things go”… well, I just don’t know how to do that.
Today the sky is clear, the air is cold and there’s a biting wind blowing… it would have been nice to go out for a run. Except for the fact that I spent the night sleeping on the bathroom floor, laying next to the toilet. I don’t know if my dinner didn’t settle right, or if this is another stress-related reaction, but I just can’t see going out for a run right now when I want to upchuck at regular intervals.
So I’m throwing in the towel… calling this week a wash. I’ll try again next week.
Sorry for the down tone of this post. I usually try to keep things upbeat, but I decided to keep it “real”. Every day is not all sunshine and rainbows!