I had been delaying this run for 3 days because of work and lack of motivation. To much work, not enough motivation any more. I'm starting to get sucked back into the Why am I doing this anymore, mentality. Worked late but Thursday and Friday so couldn't really run those nights. Saturday it was blazing hot, humid and I didn't sleep well and just not in the mood to run and it was raining on and off most of the day. Sunday I forced myself out of bed and without and fooling around just put on my running clothes and out of the door I went. I thought it would be cooler at 9:00 by the time I got my act together but I was wrong. It was already 75+ degrees and 80 % humidity. I knew it was going to be bad when my first 2 mile splits were over 10 miles. I felt like I was running through sand. I wanted to quit so many times but I kept clomping along. I planned my route in case I wanted to bail at the 6 mile mark I could. My time was Sh*t and my body was wasted I told myself you can't quit and kept running, more like old man shuffle. This when I noticed I was started to bleed down my white running shirt. I hadn't had that happen in a while. I thought I had callused up. Almost bailed at mile 7 telling myself I will walk the final 3, but kept going. I kept telling myself what if this is race day are you going to quit. I ran the TC 10 mile 2 years ago in that awful heat so I know it can happen. Same at mile 8, and 9 but I pushed on. I finally hit mile 10 and did a 10 minute cool down walk home. Not really cool, but I was walking. My time was awful and my pace was even more dreadful. 10:55! I haven't ran a 10:55 pace since my back was hurt and I was limping along. No offense to slower and beginning runners. It just sucks to be running 2 minute slower than usual. As soon as I stopped I could feel my legs cramping up. I got home and drank two Gatorades and showered. I nearly screamed as the shower hit my chest. Ah the pain. Now 4 hours later my legs are stiff and tight. I have been drinking water all day. Now its the Sunday blues and I have to get ready for a big week of work. Need to finish this game. It's only a 4 day work week since I have to go to Chicago for a baptism next weekend. Not looking forward to the 8 hour drive. Going take it easy on the way back and stop at the Dells for a couple days for our last vacation as a family before taking my oldest to College the next weekend. I plan on bringing my running gear and forcing myself to get some miles in. Maybe I will find some nice runs in chicago or in the Dells. Have to keep motivated and keep moving forward one day at a time.