I was reading through my own blog earlier and noticed that it can be a very depressing blog! That was not my intention at all when I started this. I am a fighter, I am a runner, I am strong... I am not a whiner! In person I am incredibly positive, I think that my blog has given a home to all of the fears I would rather not lay on people. In normal daily conversation I don't sit and talk about how much something hurts, or how angry I am at anything. So my blog has become a place where I just dump all of my issues. I am going to make a conscious effort to have a more positive impact through my blog. I am still going to express myself here, after all it is my blog, but I will try to balance it with more positive news. Because seriously, I am blessed! I have a husband who adores me, a nice home, gorgeous sweet little babies, a lot of good family and friends... that is more than 95% of the world can claim. I actually read a forward once that said if you have a personal computer, your own car, a stable home, and food on the table, you are literally one of the top 5% wealthiest people in the world! That is something to think about. I may have this disease, but I also have health insurance, and access to intelligent doctors and modern technology. So the glass is definitely more than half full, it's overflowing!