I don’t know what I’m doing with my blog anymore. I haven’t really been sure what to blog about for weeks. A long time ago when I started this blog it had nothing to do with running specifically. It had to do with my life. It had to to with being married to my best friend. It had to do with living healthily and pursuing fitness interests. Somewhere along the way I began to identify myself entirely as a runner – which I most definitely am – but it’s not the only part of me. Getting injured reintroduced me to myself, but it left my blog in a weird place. I almost feel obligated to post about running, but I don’t really want to because there’s really nothing remarkable to say right now. Am I running? Sure. Is it going well? Sometimes. Does it excite me? Not really, not right now.
After reading Heidi’s post last week I got to thinking about how my own blog is in this weird lull right now, and it’s getting hard to get excited about posting. On the one hand, I want to be someone that people know as a fitness-minded individual and someone that people can talk to and ask about health and fitness. I want to be a beacon of motivation. On the other hand, sometimes I feel like I’m cheating on that side of me because I may end up spending all day one day eating hot wings and drinking beer and watching football. Basically being the antithesis of who I claim to be. Which makes me feel like I’m being two-faced. I don’t even think that anyone put these restrictions on my blog, I think they were somehow self-imposed. I think somewhere along the way I made up rigid guidelines that I really don’t fit into.
All this to say, I don’t know where my blog is going. I want to post regularly because I love this community and I love the friends I’ve made through blogging, but I don’t really know what to post about right now. I am trying to figure that out though. Promise. Maybe it’s as easy as posting more about day to day life. Maybe it means just bagging the whole thing. We’ll see how it unfolds. Thank you to everyone who has continued to read through months of mediocre blogging though, I really do appreciate it.