Jaymon and I have been to hell and back as a couple and some was just couple stuff and working through this whole human experience thing but much of it has been the constant stress of a child with autism. We learned to come together although it is indeed a work in progress. Autism has bound us together profoundly and with that perspective I am thankful for it.
I sat and had my time of letting out the pain and then sat and did my mediation practice. I thought of the functional things I can do. I can work to get him into services and a good school. We keep him on his special diet and keep his talker working and updated. We research the technology available and those coming up so we can continue to figure out how to help him communicate. I can decorate the house and get him some gifts and some candy instead of cake and we will celebrate him and his life so far.
I have to focus on what I can do instead of how I wish things were different. Of course I wish he could talk and that Sam didn't get jipped out of a sibling that he could grow up with the way the younger two boys have each other. Sam has suffered too when it comes to Jupiter's autism.
BUT we learn and we grow and we love each other. What more is there really.
Happy birthday my Jupiter. I've always got your back my son.