These are the good kinds of changes. The ones I’m excited to tell my therapist and nutritionist about each week. These are the changes that are pushing me in the direction I should be headed. I find myself thinking less and less about food each day. The anxiety isn’t there anymore when I’m talking about food in my appointments or when I’m deciding on what to eat for dinner after practice. There’s still some work to be done on the earlier meals, but it’s a step.
I won’t lie, I sometimes miss my sweet tooth that I used to have. It’s gone down considerably recently and I find myself wanting more savory type foods (pizza will be making an appearance soon). My mom is kind of worried. She doesn’t know who I am anymore. I’m obsessed with these bars lately though. I used to have them at home all the time but I just found them here and it tastes like eating an ice cream oreo! Since I don’t think those exist, these will have to do.
these things are actually the only “diet” food I tolerate. 1) they’re actually big enough that I can see why they’re called “giant”, and 2) they don’t taste like some fake imitation crap
I should also add that I currently have 4 almost full boxes of ice cream sandwiches and a gallon of ice cream. You never know what you’re going to want!
So obviously there are a lot of positives but I’d be lying if there weren’t still things I need to work on.
1) feeling comfortable going out to eat. this one will take a lot more work, although I’m less anxious about it than I was.
2) keeping some of the foods I struggled with sitting in the fridge/pantry (grapes have made a comeback though, thank god!)
3) sometimes realizing that I should eat even if I’m not hungry- like this weekend at my meet when the nausea took over
4) trying new foods. This one is big and I have the furthest to go on it but I know I’ll get there eventually.
Do you follow a strict plan with your meals or do you ‘wing it’?