The blog comments are emailed to me and I usually read through them at the end of the day. YOU GUYS ARE BLOWING ME AWAY WITH SUCH GREAT WORK YOU ARE DOING!!!
I’ve been reading a lot of GOOD WORK in the Check In Threads and other posts. I’m also hearing a bit of self-doubt or feeling down about a few slip ups emotionally (having a down day). So I want to remind everyone to give yourself credit for the hard work and keep on keeping on. I posted this last year and wanted to post it again. BE GOOD TO YOU!!! :)
Then, without realizing it, you try to improve yourself at the start of each new day; of course, you achieve quite a lot in the course of time. Anyone can do this, it costs nothing and is certainly very helpful. Whoever doesn’t know it must learn and find by experience that a quiet conscience makes one strong. ~ Anne Frank
When I first started to look at my past and how screwed up everything had been and how it had affected me and led me to these horrific relationships with horrible people, it seemed HUGE and OVERWHELMING.
I started out doing everything in my power to “improve” and work things out. Other than working and spending time with my kids, I spent all my waking hours doing the work that had to be done…and after a while I started to doubt that I was getting anywhere.
People told me not to give up the day before the miracle happened, but I was tired and still hurting. They told me to do a little bit each day…read a paragraph in a book, write a few lines in a journal, talk to a friend…but don’t give up.
There were many days I felt angry and felt a lot of things had been unfair…I wanted to lash out, to act out, to seek revenge…to stop being so good and working so hard. I had a good case of self-pity sometimes but other times I was just tired of the whole thing…healing wounds put there by other people…so tired. I just wanted to act out and say no more!!!
A good friend of mine told me not to do that…to keep my side of the street clean and keep my conscience clean…
It took a lot of faith to just keep doing it, to keep chipping away at the past while trying to shape a future from nothing while working and raising 3 kids by myself.
I felt emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted…but in the long run the advice was right… keep on keeping on, little by slow each day, don’t give up the day before the miracle happens and keep your side of the street clean.
After a while, you do achieve remarkable, remarkable things.