You know that place where you're at the same place you've been before, but this time it feels different?
And you're excited but you don't want to be too excited because it might not work (like it's not worked before)...
...but you don't feel stuck in that older story any more.
And you're holding onto yourself, now allowing the pumping of the arm and the jumping up in the air, screaming--just yet...
(...because you don't want to allow that much joy, just in case you get disappointed again and crash...but while you feel little sniggly whispers of that, it isn't everything you feel or even much of what you feel...because it feels different in so many ways both subtle and overt).
Keeping my eye the outcome I want, while being happy in the Now. Staying as clear as I can be, optimistic, joyful without getting hooked in. Noticing the places inside that feel like they've changed...responding differently...centered, balanced in the now.
And you're excited but you don't want to be too excited because it might not work (like it's not worked before)...
...but you don't feel stuck in that older story any more.
And you're holding onto yourself, now allowing the pumping of the arm and the jumping up in the air, screaming--just yet...
(...because you don't want to allow that much joy, just in case you get disappointed again and crash...but while you feel little sniggly whispers of that, it isn't everything you feel or even much of what you feel...because it feels different in so many ways both subtle and overt).
Keeping my eye the outcome I want, while being happy in the Now. Staying as clear as I can be, optimistic, joyful without getting hooked in. Noticing the places inside that feel like they've changed...responding differently...centered, balanced in the now.
Lots of breathing.
This creating/trust thingie is Big.