I was brought up with eight children Where father was gone from home early morning till late night. Mother all the time angry at one kid or the other. Everybody use to say I was the better behaved sibling among all, and my mom was always partial to other children in comparison to me. Anyway I am a grandmother now . After marriage and having kids I started devloping emotional problem where I needed to seek psychiatric help. I was dignosed as bipolar.I was in and out of Hospital and taking treatment for long period of time. In this illness I use to become suspicious and paranoid. My husband kept pushing me and kept me doing my responsibility.
The last time I became suspicious and paranoid and I knew that I had become sick. I told my husband. The doctor increased my dose . I don't know what helped. I came out of it. This time I realised that I can recognise my illness. So I can reverse it. When I looked back It was always about fights about my in-laws and i would start with complaints and it would end up in suspicousness and paranoia.
I have to live with my mother in law and take some care for some time of the year. Now I am afraid how to prevent this situatation from reoccuring. I do have anger problems. I want some some peaceful and happy years of my life. My husband is O.K. I am afraid I will fall for that pattern againl I don't how to resolve this problem.