Day 28 of my 30 day challenge to write…Dry as a stick of beef jerky.
Posted Jul 19 2010 7:32pm
Day 28 and I’m dry…
Dry as a stick of beef jerky.
I have been staring at a blank page for over an hour now. I write a sentence or two…then back space until every letter disappears.
I mean, do I write about my day? Let’s see…I ran errands…I did my Brazilian Butt lift workout…I went to the bank…I met a friend for coffee…I saw a woman breast feeding while she was in an obvious business meeting…
I did talk to a man while I was waiting on my car to be serviced. I knew he was about to explode when I walked up to where he was standing and heard him say into his cell phone, ”Ok, I’ve got to go. Why? Because I am busy. No. Really. I have to go. I have someone standing here waiting on me…”
I tried not to act like I heard it, but I felt sorry for him. Who ever was on the other end of the line took “I’ve got to go” for “time to interrogate”. Poor guy.
As we stood next to each other waiting, he asked me what I “did”. I told him…he then used the next 35 minutes to pour out his frustrations about his marriage. Speaking things he would probably not even say in a therapist office; all the while saying, “I have no idea why I am telling you all of this. I never do this.”
I just stood and listened; didn’t give advice, just nodded my head when appropriate. By the time I shook his hand and left, I could tell he was better than he was when I walked up on his phone call.
I walked off thinking how I started out studying psychology in college…maybe I should have stuck with it.
Here he was, feeling totally trapped in his relationship. Young daughter in the picture…no way out without causing a lot of hurt.
Here I was, completely free; no one to have to explain why I needed to get off the phone to-except maybe my Mother on occasion.
I counted my blessings as I got into my car. I am free. I am not trapped. I may not have the happy love relationship that some people have, but I have me.
I don’t envy people that have to struggle like that. Staying in relationships where they are not happy. Either, because they are scared to be alone or have children or financial reasons.
I drove off smiling. Realizing I may not have it all figured out and I may be stuck in some areas, but I am the happiest I have ever been in my life.