Is this denial?

I'm not sure if I'm in denial... or have simply become lazy.

I have always been a 'get it done' person. I seldom procrastinate. But I've noticed that this year... as the year has progressed... and Darryl's death and now Mom's (as well as two other deaths - my Grama and my daughter's friend's Mom passed away from cancer earlier this year) I'm getting less done. I'm finding myself less enthusiastic about getting off the couch and doing things. Even emptying my inbox of emails is a challenge. I have to literally force myself to get the magazine done each issue and we won't even discuss if you'd want to eat off my floors!

I feel like I'm doing really well... like I'm coping and moving forward - but when I look at what I'm achieving each day... well that's when it become apparent to me that something is amiss.

I can't even think of anything else to share at this point. Hopefully my sludgey self will transform soon. I am soooo wanting to fast but promised my family I would wait till after the holidays. I really want to find my centre and breathe...

in light,
Aleesha

I am so appreciative for all I am, all I've been and who I'm becoming.
I am so grateful for my light lean healthy being.
I am blessed.