Lord, Sometimes I wonder if you here me. I really do wonder if you would rather be listening to someone then listen to me, talk about some of the silly and stupid things that I ramble on and on about. I guess sometimes I get really intimidated by talking to you. I feel as if I could tell you so much more, but I struggle with letting people in, and I struggle with letting people close. But I do believe you are working on me with this. I believe that you might have something so great for me, and its probably greater then I can fathom. But right now I am really trying to get my life under control, and get things back to where they need to be. FOCUSED on you. You are the only focus I want. I don't want anything else. I want the garment of Praise instead of this heaviness that I carry. I want to delight myself in your riches, and trade everything I have for something better. Lord, take this heart of stone, and make it whole. Lord, I want you to use me. I want to live a life that is pleasing to you. I long for holiness, and more of your heart. My heart is so thirsty right now, thirsty for more and more of you. I am letting go of all that was, and I am trying to run whole heartily after you. Lord continue to purge my life of the things that aren't bringing glory to you. Because if its not going to bring me closer to you, I don't want it.
My heart yearns for you. It burns and aches for more and more of you.