New Year's Resolutions - This Year's Theme "Changes"
Posted Jan 22 2009 6:22pm
Last year, I had big dreams which resulted in big resolutions for 2007. In so many ways 2007 was a phenomenal year and while I didn't accomplish all of my goals, looking back on last year's list, I definitely batted over 500.
2007 will always be a special year for me because I was blessed with Bo. There will always be a dark cloud on 2007 too because of Grandpa's death but overall it was truly an amazing year. Mike and I were able to travel on several weekend trips and to Alaska. I was able to experience pregnancy and all of the ups and downs that came with it. I became an English teacher and somehow managed to survive it. I rebuilt broken friendships and made new ones. It was a good year.
My life has changed significantly since January 1, 2007 but I can honestly say that none of the changes were unanticipated. I know that by January 1, 2009 my life will have changed even more. This year Mike hopes to transfer and with that will come a move 5 hours north. This move will result in us being closer to Mike's family but it will also mean leaving my hometown. It will mean my mom living with us (or at least in our backyard). It will mean leaving the only job I ever thought I would have. It will mean leaving Mandy. And while I know there will be so many positive aspects of our move a big part of me is scared. Scared of all of the changes the next year will bring... But I know that this move is for the best. It is what I need to do for myself, for Mike, for our family...
Also in the next year I plan to attack my infertility again. I hope to do IVF again in May or June and see where that gets us. I hope I'm ready for the battle by that point. In my heart of hearts I know that our family is not complete. And for some reason I just have a feeling it is going to grow to be larger than I ever anticipated...
I am currently job searching. And while I haven't figured out what I want to be when I grow up yet (one of last year's resolutions) I am still trudging along and I think I have a better idea of who I am than I did a year ago. I am looking for teaching jobs and I am leaning towards more part-time so I can spend plenty of time with Bo -- and maybe go back to school. Maybe I'll teach at a community college? As much as I love yearbook a large part of me wants to give it up when my seniors this year leave. They have made my teaching dreams come true and I feel like I have fulfilled my goals in that part of my life. Instead of teaching full-time, I think I would like to go back to school to begin my Ph.D. -- possibly in curriculum and instruction. Then I would still be involved in education but in a different facet than I am currently.
Where will I be this time next year? Will I have a house in Geneva? Will I be working part-time at a community college? Will I be pregnant with twin boys? Will my mom live in our house? Will I have started my Ph.D? Will we still be in Olney? Will Bo be talking? Only time will tell for sure but one thing I do know -- it will be a year of change.
This year's resolutions: 1. Be the best Mom I can be. To me this means devoting as much quality time as possible into molding Bo into a phenomenal young man. I have such high hopes and lofty dreams for him. I want him to be smart, handsome, funny, and well-educated. I want so much for him. While I know that this is only his first year of life he will learn and do so many things this year. I want to be able to be in the moment for all of his milestones. I want to enjoy them (and him) to the fullest extent possible while teaching him about life and the world around him.
2. Be able to "go with the flow" more. Because this year will be such a year of change I need to be able to "go with the flow" a lot more than I currently do. I need to be able to be more flexible and role with the punches.
3. Let go. I need to let go of so many things. I need to let go of Grandpa and move forward with my life. I need to let go of my infertility. I need to let go of my anal retentive tendencies so I can enjoy life more.
4. Be healthy. My 6 week post- partum check is on Friday. After I get the all clear from my doctor I plan to start the Weight Watchers program for breastfeeding mothers. I also plan to start working out again. It feels like it has been so long because I was so careful during my pregnancy. I realize that getting to the gym probably isn't practical at this point so I have several DVD workouts that I plan to use, as well as my elliptical trainer and free weights. My goal will be to work out at least 3 times a week and to cook healthy food. I need to cook more to assure that not only am I becoming healthier but that Mike is as well. I want him to be around a long time! And also, when Bo starts solid foods here in a few months I want him to eat healthy and have healthy role models to follow. Being healthy is definitely a big goal for this year.
5. Devote time to my husband. I can already see how easy it is for some couples to put everything into their child( ren ) and let their marriage go. Having a child is time consuming and all encompassing. But, Bo would not be here if Mike and I had not fallen in love first. I need to work hard to find the time needed to spend time with Mike and keep our marriage strong. We both relish in our alone time so when Bo is asleep we tend to migrate to our computers for our "me" time but we are going to have to carve out some "us" time too. I do not want to lose sight of why I married him and how wonderful we are together.
6. Remember that sometimes I will need to devote time to myself too. Sometimes I will need time just for me. I need to take the time to be healthy, look nice, wear decent clothing, and take care of myself. I need to remember my own needs. If I do not do that I can't be a good Mom, wife, daughter, friend, teacher, or anything else. I don't want to let myself totally go just because I'm a Mom and that is going to require devoting some time to me. Time to exercise. Time to eat right. Time to relax. It also may require spending some money. Money to hire help when I need it. Money to hire a babysitter. Money to buy a gym membership. Possibly even money for a housekeeper to maintain my sanity. I need to remember that money isn't everything -- happiness is.