find for the past 4 years that I have been blogging, is that, many times I have
no idea what my post will be up to the very day of posting, then something happens, something comes to mind, and just like that I have a post. Oh the joys of blogging!!!
I am not
a pack rat as I like getting rid of stuff I have no use for. I like space to
breathe, space for air to circulate and so I have a limit for the time that I
keep stuff for, just in case I might need them for something. When that time
elapses and I have not yet find use for the items, I bid them farewell.
this said, this morning while my husband and the kids were still sleeping, I
decided to do a little cleaning up. The thing with kids is that there is no
order with them around, things are just generally chaotic and out of place, and as
someone who likes order, I have to be making special effort to embrace and
appreciate this chaos. I have to find it beautiful too, because, after all,
would I be writing such a post without having my beautiful chaotic children
Oops, I strayed a bit here, so here I go back
on track. While cleaning up this morning, I stumbled across my pregnancy tests,
each still baring the signs which herald news of the conception of our
three miracles. I took them out and looked at them, still remembering
how we reacted when we saw the positive sign on each test. I looked over at the
children in their beds sleeping and I felt an overwhelming sense of being
highly favoured by The Almighty once again.
tests are going nowhere I thought, I will never throw them out. One of the
reasons I kept them in the first place, is to incorporate them in the memories
we want to soon set up for each child.
there are other reasons why I kept them. It might not be as easy to put into
words as the first, but I am thinking that I have held on to them because I do
not want to let go of any part of my struggles with infertility. I kept them because
I also do not want to let go of any part of my triumph over this life altering