Last night was not so fun, I had a good deal of lower abdominal pain and I just could not get to sleep until very late. Normally, this would not have been a problem but I had to get up very early to drive to Gulf Breeze for US and b/w this morning. She saw about 18 follicles today with the largest on the right measuring 8mm and the largest on the left measuring about 11mm. I think this is okay for where we are at in the process. However, my estrogen was only 115 which I think is lower than it should be and it is definitely lower than the previous measurement.
I was freaking out a little bit this afternoon waiting for them to call with my results and new instructions. When I called the office the after hours message came on. Psalm 121 came to mind,
"I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth."
She called about 15 minutes later.
I must admit though that the low estrogen does have me feeling discouraged, which is leading me to worry and fear. Right now I am having to remind myself who is in control. I know that God is sovereign and that this whole process is in His hands. His ways and timing are perfect. I must remember to take each day as it comes, to "put my hand in His,"and allow Him to lead me step by step.
Tonight I am also feeling a little lonely and I am really missing J. I am thankful that I am having lunch with a friend tomorrow and that tomorrow night is small group.
I am also thankful for the guy in the black jeep that I saw on my way to Gulf Breeze this morning. This is what he had written on his front windshield, large enough and in the right orientation so that the person in front of him could read it in their rear view mirror SLOWER TRAFFIC KEEP RIGHT
Anyway, I got a good laugh (I was behind him, not in front of him). I am feeling better that someone out there is more type-A them me.
I will be posting specific prayer requests tomorrow.